So what's with the song lyrics??

I want to keep posting, but I am SOOOOO overwhelmed with life right now, so those two songs are embodying what I'm feeling right now. Things can be hard and totally suck, but we have to keep trying to make things better!! Plus, those songs are on my playlist as I study for my last exam of the quarter. Don't get too excited!! I still have a HUGE paper that's not exactly started due Monday plus the oh-so-wonderful IRB to take on. not to mention a trip up to the BC to see my family before I leave on my Southern Hemisphere adventure. Whoooooo!!! So anyways, to add a less idealistic note, but just as "you'll get through this" kind of a song: "If you're going through hell, keep on going. Don't slow down, if you're scared, don't show it. You might get out before the devil even knows you're there!!"

I'm dedicating all three songs to my fellow activists, grad students, loyal readers, who can all get down in the dumps because, let's face it, life can be hard sometimes. Capitalist scum, keeping us down!! (Marxist class exam tomorrow.) Well, it's not actually Marxist, but the professor is, so it totally has the spin on it. However, I feel like Marxism has its good points. I mean what is communism but a way to try to make everyone have a good quality of life?? That's gotta be a positive. Just because pretty much all communal societies end up with a fascist dictator doesn't mean it isn't a sweet idea. I mean sweet as in nice, not sweet as in Dude, that's Sweet! It's just something to ponder in this post-Castro in power world. Anyways, the point is that despite everything, we will get through all of this and it will be OK. Maybe not perfect, but OK. Chin up! Pip pip cheerio! Stiff upper lip! Tut-tut it looks like rain.... hmm, doesn't quite make sense... Have a good one!

The "Impossible Dream" from Man of La Mancha

To dream the impossible dream
To fight the unbeatable foe
To bear with unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go

To right the unrightable wrong
To love pure and chaste from afar
To try when your arms are too weary
To reach the unreachable star

This is my quest
To follow that star
No matter how hopeless
No matter how far

To fight for the right
Without question or pause
To be willing to march into Hell
For a heavenly cause

And I know if I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart will lie peaceful and calm
When I'm laid to my rest

And the world will be better for this
That one man, scorned and covered with scars
Still strove with his last ounce of courage
To reach the unreachable star

Sarah McLachlan: World on Fire Lyrics

The worlds on fire its more then I can handle
Ill tap into the water try and bring my share
Try to bring more, more then I can handle
Bring it to the table
Bring what I am able

Hearts are worn in these dark ages
Youre not alone in these stories pages
The light has fallen amongst the living and the dying
And Ill try to hold it in
Yeah Ill try to hold it in

Chorus

I watch the heavens but I find no calling
Something I can do to change whats coming
Stay close to me while the skys falling
I dont wanna be left alone dont wanna be alone

Chorus

Hearts break hearts mend love still hurts
Visions clash planes crash still theres talk of
saving souls still colds closing in on us

We part the veil on our killer sun
Stray from the straight line on this short run
The more we take the less we become
The fortune of one man means less for some

Chorus

Cuddling, Kittens, and More Work

I know that I will get in trouble with my sweetie for this post. I am trying to do more work than I have time for, but I'm completely distracted. COMPLETELY! I am unable to concentrate or get anything done. However, I have three weeks until I leave for Peru. Just three!! And I still have the IRB, 2 loooong papers due and a final! Not to mention finish booking my hostels, school, flights, trip, and making a final schedule. Oh, and did I tell you that we're renovating our condo and have to move in the next week and a half??? Plus, we have to find a wedding photographer before I go so we can get engagement pictures between when I get back and when school starts. Lord....

So, anyways, I will get in trouble when everyone reads this. After all, I am giving myself a guilt trip about it. However, as I've learned in the best class ever, Qualitative Research Methods, sometimes you need to express your vulnerable, frustrated self. So, here I am. I'm just overwhelmed with everything. I really have to get the paper and the IRB done by this weekend so I can get my other paper done next week so I can go to Bay City the weekend after for my darling goddaughter's 9th birthday. Oh, yeah, and the move has to happen within these next two weeks. However, I like that the last week will really just be involved with being settled, booking my last hostel in Cusco and perhaps the photographer. Who knows.

My blogs have all been fussy, huh? Well, what're you going to do. My apartment is covered with crap, everywhere. The condo is messy. I'm messy. My neighbors are fighting again. They yell a lot. I've got a lot going on here. Oy, I'm feeling the pull of my work. So, later days.

New Condo!!!

Helloooooooo Nurse!, I mean, World...

So, we bought our condo yesterday. WHOOOOO!!!! I'm currently sitting in the only real chair we have here, in our new condo. The kittens are here, as well, but I don't think they're particularly happy. They're very jumpy and weirded out. It probably won't help when we take them back to the apartment while everything here is cleaned and/or painted. However, we just wanted them to be here on our first night. They're adorable. I woke up with both of them within 2 feet of me, but not too close. All morning they followed me around and didn't let me out of their sight. Now, they're hanging out on the same level as me. I went upstairs, they went upstairs. I went downstairs, they went downstairs. Wow, this is a REALLY entertaining blog!!

Getting a condo makes you think about things, though. I don't mean like a complete existential re-thinking everything kind of thing. It's just so odd to be growing up. I don't think of myself as an adult, but I have been for five years. Wow. I'm responsible for a piece of property. Holy wow. It's just odd.

So, anyways, I was thinking about paint colors for the upstairs bedrooms. The previous owner left a big ol' unpainted spot on the wall. So, we're definitely going to repaint that, but I think we should repaint both bedrooms. Something with color. I don't mind the downstairs being all white because there're a lot of other things going on, like the fireplace, the kitchen, and all that. But upstairs needs some happy color. Ugh, I'm supposed to be cleaning right now. The last owner did not leave things very tidy. What're you going to do?? We're going to get the carpets cleaned and the ducts cleaned. I'm also thinking about painting the kitchen cupboards. They're a medium brown wood veneer thing right now. It's pretty dated. It looks like th 70's to me.... Could be just me though. Anyways, gotta run. Cleaning waits for no woman. I swear this blog'll get interesting sometime. ;-p